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Love knows no pride

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Usually, I would say that ‘undermined’ is a quasi-feeling. A feeling mixed in with a thought: someone is doing something that I interpret as undermining. If my clients tell me they feel undermined, I ask them how they feel when they have that thought. Maybe sad? Scared? Angry? And what’s the need underneath that thought? Maybe respect, support, acceptance?

Today’s situation is an exception to the rule. I don’t think I am undermined, I don’t feel I am undermined, I KNOW I am undermined. It is a fact, an observation. If you were a fly on the wall registering everything that was said and done, your summary of what you observed would be ‘yep, hum, undermining’. Everyone else in the room would confirm that too, by the way. I don’t want to be undermined, certainly not by a colleague in the class I facilitate.

So, it’s time to address this with him. I am crystal clear about it. I am right, and he is wrong. Even better yet, I am the victim, and he is the perpetrator. Well, even better than that: I am innocent and pure, he is vile and mean.

I feel so good with my level of self-righteousness. It is a great start for an open conversation, where he will acknowledge how much he wronged me and where we will both agree that our problems are his fault.

I do hear a voice in my head reminding me of my commitment to loving-speech and deep listening, of my dedication to include all needs. Well. I always listen to that voice, and today is not the time.

Today is an exception. Today is an urgent matter of proofing myself right. Today I am ready to tell the TRUTH. I am ready to receive hundreds of apologies, regrets and amendments and all the other yummy stuff life is made of.

I start off well, in my usual accusatory way. But the reminder of my commitment gets too loud. It is as if Thich Nhat Hanh stands next to me. Firm and kind: “There is no pride in love”.

I can’t help it, but all these years of Nonviolent Communication training and mindfulness practice are finally catching up with me. I have to listen and include his needs. I have to be honest and accept my failures on the path of loving-kindness.

Instead of going on a rant, I realize I only want connection based on understanding. I want to open my heart to his feelings and needs. I want to lean into this uncomfortable place of vulnerability and ask what he wants.

We talk for more than three hours. We are able to hold all needs. And we find solutions that work for everyone.

The next class was a delightful experience of collaboration, respect and support. Thank you, dear friend, for walking the path of compassionate communication with me.

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Author: Elly van Laar

I am a coach. I specialize in helping professionals schedule time for relationships and self-care. I have a Master's degree in Political Science, Leiden University, the Netherlands. I love meditation, walking, gardening, biking, and hanging out with family and friends.

4 thoughts on “Love knows no pride

  1. You are a good person Miss Elly. I’m glad I’ve come to find you. You always find the right positive thing to say. Peace

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  2. Leaving our comfort zone is not only challenging, but a necessity in order for growth. I once heard, “Sometimes we must leave our safe places, and walk empty handed amongst our enemies.” To walk empty handed is to walk with an open mind. Only when we can open our hearts, will we ever discover new challenges and new ideas. Close one door to open another. If we stay true to ourselves, we may live in a day where we don’t need to close anymore doors. I love the fact that I can listen and not judge, (most of the time anyway.) I am far from perfect, but I do try. I have listened to people argue about the world’s most stupid things. From politics to God. I know when I’m being listened to and when I’m being dist. The one thing that Jesus said, and I’d adhere to it most of the time is this. “Don’t throw pearls before swine, for they will trample over them.” I know when I’m sharing with people and I know when people are closed minded and really all they want to do is share with me. My opinion means nothing. That’s when the choice comes, shall I just listen and try to plant some seeds here, or leave in peace. I must confess, I usually leave in peace.

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    • Hi Richard,

      I like your idea of closing doors to open new ones, of letting go of the life line to swim to the other shore. I also like the idea of listening to people, if they don’t have an interest in listening to me. Usually their talking is a strategy to be heard, which they might not have received enough of in their life. My practice is to empathize with the need behind their strategy. If I create a connection from that place of understanding, I often find them open to listening to my experience. It’s a practice, I often fail, and I love that practice.

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